習近平跟我說國旗......

         



我感應習近平跟我說五星旗沒意義,很草率,中國想以青天白日滿地紅為國旗

我對信義區泰和里的觀感

我家住在象山的六合里,掖翠山莊,象山側面是通往吳興街區的泰和里,

泰和里的貧富不均很嚴重,因為有一些人炒地皮成為暴富,有些人住得很不像樣,很勉強,

但是泰和里篤信道教,他们有很多法會,值得評估的是,那麼多法會,為甚麼人心不安?

泰和里有很多"兄弟","跑路人","飆車族",而且他们有個小天后"范曉萱"

因為有太多人給這裡壓迫,這裡本是范家莊,漸漸看不出來了!

有很多新大樓,架在舊房子間,看來很突兀!

市政府想要都更泰和里,我舉雙手讚成!但是一定要安置遷離的每一戶,

都能以低廉的房租,先住在國民住宅或公家宿舍裡,

否則,是市政府欺壓貧民!

象山的地質,是岩層,但是還是要評估水土保持的狀況

談氣功

我想跟網友談談氣功,高中時我練了香功,我老家南投人都很熱衷這種養生功,練了一陣子以後,我體會到的氣感很多,比如面頰的氣絲,大腿骨的氣震,心臟和胸腔的熱流.

可是我那時在準備聯考,因此我放不下競爭心,我覺得自己無與倫比,已經是神仙,樣樣都得第一,結果,上帝讓我得到落榜的命,我才追求平凡中的偉大!

上帝讓我得到大失敗,我開悟了,我覺得氣功是有為法,天地正氣是順乎自然之理,我所仰慕的文學家,至少孔子和老子,都不曾修練氣功,他们二位是中國之至,我於是放棄了氣功.

後來我學習並加入天主教,我得到玩瑜珈的機會,玩瑜珈也是要運氣,和中國一樣講究七個脈輪,人有七竅是古學,不是絕學,絕學是讓七個竅並存並修,不要相信您的氣屬於哪一輪,不然就是鑽牛角尖!

所有的氣功都講究----天人合一,自然和人體的合諧狀態,如果說一個人急著去上瑜珈課,可是不喜歡大自然,那就是房中術,瑜珈玉女可以生得比較順!

我現在不再有氣感的干擾,我天天洗常溫水澡,即使12度我也堅持,我不知道鍊不鍊得成丹,但是無所謂,順其自然.我已經淡出基督徒磁場,我回歸中國文化的基礎,保安宮很神!只要知道自己是炎黃子孫,保生大帝會給命,那裡也有神農氏和玄天上帝,我沒有照譜修鍊,因為袁了凡讓我知道,修鍊是為了出命,也就是為了離開輪迴,我不知道我的未來!但是我發願修己渡人,一直到永遠!

扁鵲和華陀的當代弟子......

扁鵲的子孫,就是現在的闕姓,鵲與闕諧音,扁是他的自謙自抑,
扁鵲的子孫,非常陰柔端正,內向好學
我所認識的有三人,闕永中,闕鈺芬,闕秀珊

華陀的子孫,就是現在的簡姓,簡意玲醫師是我的姐妹

惠安居士講老子----天下有道

原文:
         天下有道,卻走馬以糞;天下無道,戎馬生於郊.禍莫大於不知足;咎莫大於欲得.
         故知足之足,常足矣.


惠安譯:
            明明有路,馬卻往往踏在糞上
            明明無路,戰馬卻在野外生產
           
            得道而不惜,是第一等禍事
            不能得道而強求,是第一等過錯

           因此,能以知足的心靈為福,就是圓滿

Note 2013.12.26

My younger sister is sicked,and I wonder if it was because my careless wrong treat her,she is in marriage,and I don't know if I should talk to her,for many years,we couldn't deep talk,since she choose to love her man!

Sisterhood were my best friends,but now become curse,because we exchange fate with each other,and no one satisfied with fate!

I wish to reach a tolerance circle,but I cannot embrace my sister,because she will get anger,however,in my soul,I wish to cherish my sisterhood like in the old days!

God!I wish you heal my sister!I wish everyone be in peace,but forgive how irritated I was!Now I fond peace,but I feel I still cannot heal my younger sister,so do I keep her distance,I give her to You.Please be with her!I felt she want to see me,but she leave far away.God!please guide my family !

樂園

該死的蟲子~~~~漫畫

Note 2013.12.22

What can we do,if childhood best friend become enemy?
What can we do ,if your siblings were your wrestling opponents?

Childhood memory wouldn't exist,if someone lose his true colour because of sex' growth.It is very harsh,human-beings become satans because of sex' growth!

Children are in Eden,and adults are in world,do you agree?!
Pity!I don't know why God wants us to be angels ,but he also wants us to be sex mature?!

I believe in,God tempts us by lust,people who keep true colour,which is a  naive heart ,will win heaven!

Notes 2013.12.21

If you,a moralized gentle man question me----Why hadn't you done more charity,for this and that?
I would stunned !Yes,I would!Because neither me know why sometimes we do charity,but other times we couldn't!

Maybe,it is because we only need a kind heart to bless the poor men,but not give every strayer our clothe !

If not you still love life,you must create a ideal lifestyle,therefore ,you would tresspass into inequity kindness,
because you couldn't save them all!

God!I still love life!I cannot suicide ,I cannot donate my property and fallow Jesus!

But I love God!

We shouldn't endless do charity,or its become a charity machine ,endless charity is government ,
And people who pursue moral ,should do charity till reach way ,then create your world!

Notes 2013.12.20

I still remember in teenage,I beganto think about----What is truth.Then a very big catastrophe came to me---Fail in Enter College Exam!For a smart girl,it was a harsh task!

But anyhow,why does truth charming me?
Because I'm a positive person,I want be bright,high,and free!

How silly I thought,pursuing truth will make me win!

God wanted me to give up diploma and fortune to reach truth!

And I endured great suffer in spirit ,however,I've known to exist is reaching truth,truth is enternal price value,but wisdom is flexible attitude for life!

I haven't win a fortune but I win inspirations ,by the way to pursue truth.

God asked me ,what do I want from Him,because He praised my charity,and I've wished to have joyful life!
Because I don't eager to die!

Notes 2018.12.19

Should we look back to see how human nature be tortured in the Second World War?
I've never experienced it,but it is possible that catastrophe come back to world!

Now we Chinese be released from War,and the Pacific Ocean is in peace,but,Middle East is at hell.
It might be truth that we human-beings take turn to go hell!Paradis ,Earth,and Hell can happen in life time,but not wait till the judgement day!

However, no matter in heaven or hell ,a noble man's personality would never move!

I'm curios about the life after death,I believe in,it is spiritual world!
Spiritual world is there waiting for us,our future is not outer space,but reach a wonderland we've fight for in our life time!

我是獨生女得失心瘋,老師,別為我哭泣,人生如戲

武丁就是Rudi,高貴而不驕傲的圖騰

善良的小強~~~~漫畫

Notes 2013.12.18

I left the church,and face life,I've learnt what is Jesus' Way,Truth,and Life!

Many people in Taiwan have prejudice that to be a Catholic means giving up Chinese way,but I could feel I will be someone who be deserted,because my blood is Chinese,and I love China,I love Taiwan ,if wasn't Love is God!Love is Catholic!

Besides,I've known a truth,when a Taiwanese giving up Chinese heritage and pursue Europa,he will be neglack ,no matter how eager was his attitude!Europeans will respect a Chinese,when he represents Chinese!

But,what was the price,for long years I searching for Jesus' passage to heaven?

That's the truth ----Almighty Creator is the ultimate God,people on earth must give up price on earth to win heaven!

My dear!If you desire super power,begin from an idea,"God reads our minds,He wouldn't wrong look us!"
Keep it in mind,it is the key to begin to pray!

真理是永恆的,智慧是因時制宜的

為甚麼美國人是異端之傳聞種種

人類放棄迷信神學,進入了啟蒙時代,運用理性,也就是人本主義來創造文明,

上帝曾經非常讚許,在達文西,哥白尼,牛頓.....這種天才的帶領下,

上帝給人類的獎勵就是發現新大陸,

美國人的天真和冒險犯難的精神十分可敬,

但是,人類的理性主義和人本主義逐漸發展到異端的境界裡,

因為美國人是拋棄歐亞古大陸的包伏的冒險家,

美國人不停想突破,最後創造了宇宙論,登月神話,

美國人已經不信神!不信在歐亞大陸所承傳的歷史!

最後上帝降了無數的災難!

渣打銀行說,人類的文明不會再突破,只有儲蓄才有未來,

儲蓄就是慢慢玩,玩身邊的瑣事,因為外星球不是人類高攀得起的,

星星就是神,我们在地球上的人,就是被神考驗的孩子,

您情願相信,有一顆星星是您的守護神,

還是妄想你知道那顆星星長得坑坑巴巴????

做做得到的事,就是正確得運用理性,就是得天命!

陳水扁是臺灣養子,他是日本人拖養的

搜刮民脂民膏是日本人對臺灣的統治態度,臺灣年輕人不要再昏迷了!

李梅樹告訴我,日本人橫徵暴斂!

李美萱是健教老師的傳人,她跟我一樣是獨身,聽說她從沒有色業!

衣服的秘密

女人穿美麗的衣服,就是為了性伴侶,

獨身的人,應該做中性打扮

佛陀問我一件事

佛陀問:妮妮,甚麼是愛?

我答:就是無受想行識,不求回報的感情,也就是本心

說自己登陸月球的是撒但

月球表面是沒有地心引力的,跟據阿姆斯壯月球漫步的樣子,大家都知道他站不住,

沒有地磁力,是不可能放儀器在月球表面的!

說自己登陸月球的是撒但,因為月亮是神!

水的固體,液體,氣體,變化不是固定的

我是惠安居士,我認為水的三態變化不是像自然科學課程裡所寫的,攝氏0度結冰,100度昇華,

理由一,水的氣化只要在不同溫度的大氣相接觸的狀況下就會產生,比如雲霧潦繞的山裡

理由二,不到冰點也固化的現象,如冰雹

臺灣小孩的悲傷

我還記得戒嚴時的臺灣,而且思慕之.

因為蔣總統是賢君,戒嚴就是半君權的部份民主,可是我從不覺得自己不自由,我的童年非常快樂,所有小朋友都在樂園裡,因為蔣總統保護我们.

我讀小四時,經國先生過逝,我記得學校降半旗,集體默哀,我內心肅穆.

蔣總統時,我们是古國的精神,所有人都敦厚,樸實,之後中華民國民主改革,民進黨和共產黨左右夾殺中華少年的成長!

因為我國有勇氣追求自由民主,所以日本人滲透臺灣,民進黨就是日本的自民黨,他们堅持要擾亂我们的民族主義,您可記得,本來的歌仔戲和國劇,變成日劇和韓劇,民進黨要臺灣哈日,要罵蔣公,不停鬥白色恐怖!

我家族沒有人在白色恐怖罹難,罹難的就是賴著不走的日本人,國民黨趕他们走,所以才有這個事件!

因為要公開民主的果實,追求與大陸為手足的情誼,所以臺灣小孩不能讀名校,名校是大陸留學生的,陸生堅持要暴動,丟鞋子,反拆遷,我们正港的臺灣人都不知道他们是從哪裡冒出來的!

我们臺灣小孩長大了!看見自己的歷史,我有很多同學早夭了!因為這麼多的社會事件造成的打擊,但他们不會白死,他们是中華民族的英靈,我们活著的人繼承他们的理想!

BBC問我一件事

BBC問:我们很確定,臺灣人是靈媒,請問為甚麼?

玉皇大帝回答:因為臺灣人瞭解電子文化,可是喜歡讀古人寫的經

所有的樂器都是淫,只有人聲是人類最真的樂器

渣打銀行拖我公開一件事

渣打銀行說:人類文明已經不可能再進步,只有追求節省,才能有未來!

甘迺迪告訴我一件事

甘迺迪總統告訴我一件事,他是被NASA謀殺的,因為他很瞭解人類不可能登陸月球

是撫摸殺死我的正氣,我永遠不會再想被撫摸

自己的房間的極至就是----子宮是自己的

側面剖稀日月明功虐死詹生一案

日月明功的成員,都是得不到丈夫疼愛的女人,她们的教義是自愛,

陳巧明的神力,就是暴躁的脾氣,因為所有練瑜珈和養生操的人都沒脾氣,只有她敢惡,

詹生會被虐死,是因為日月明功的女人恨男人,所以性虐他,打算採陽補陰

所有的凌虐致死案,都是對性無能的受害人有性癮,

洪仲丘的長官,會虐死他,是對他的同志愛

本案的疑點在於,日月明功是否有採陽補陰的事實

note:陳巧明有她的苦衷,她說她被男人凌虐到失去人性,成為性變態,憎恨童子,
這是她的報復行動,但是,陳巧明是被誰凌虐的?

陳巧明坦言她從小被家暴,她沒有辦法愛孩子!

異能者與神能者

有兩種超能力,異能者與神能者.

異能者就是只要他恨,就會改變外界,他们是已經沒有愛的人.

神能者就是祈禱改變世界,就是跟上帝說話的選民.

新小說~~~~草稿

"喂!加宜!妳今天爆料甚麼?"

"我僅量炒熱蔡天后自拍D奶的事件!"

"幹得好!一定會加薪!到時候請客!"

"No Problem!"

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顧加宜熄了編輯室最後一盞燈,一如往昔,她是最後一個離開的,揉扁City Cafe 的紙杯,一,二,三,一共有三杯,丟進字紙簍裡,顧加宜鎖上大門,抱著安全帽,離開了Everyday新聞社.

顧加宜今年三十五,獨身,不和同事交往,原因是大家都有該認的業!而顧加宜就是沒有業,才獨來獨往!她一直和爸媽住一起,家裡只有她一份收入,不過爸媽該買的保險都早就買齊了,剩下來是享福,她家不缺錢,因為只有一個獨女,但她還是堅持要工作,不然覺得自己沒有意義!

"爸媽!你们先吃,我還在看YOUTUBE的影集!"

"菜都涼了!妳不吃我拿給Lucky吃!"

"那就給牠吃,我想看完這部戲!"

他们家的米格魯,Lucky,用事故的眼神在她的電腦桌旁徘徊,好像在說"妳不吃我吃!"
加宜在看BBC的文學戲,最經典的Pride and Prejudice ,她已經看過兩次,這是第三次看,她看完還是像讀高中時,那麼愁悵.

"加宜 ,妳最近有沒有寫出好文章,拿來給爸爸看!"
顧老爺是公務員退休,對這個獨生女只有萬分期待,當初顧老爺是出版過幾本國學評論的文人雅士,文章是經國之大業,就是他傳給女兒的家法.

"爸爸 ,我寫了一本新唐詩...您想不想看!?"
"嗯,妮妮寫得有趣!"

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夜裡,顧老爺和夫人睡了,顧加宜確定Lucky在客聽裡的狗窩裡,Lucky只要睡著就一直睡到天亮,加宜輕手輕腳的起來,煎中藥,她要煎一份酸棗仁湯,因為失眠症又犯了!

顧加宜捧著藥,墊著腳,溜進房間 .她的書桌前,一排三民書局的國學叢書,這種國學的藍色,就是伽藍的藍色,伽藍就是唐朝的佛寺是藍色的屋頂.

喝了幾口中藥,倒也無心看書,想起今天聽說林國棟住院的事,不覺眼眶氾淚,她對國棟還是有情,但是只有在夜深人靜的時候,."林國棟那個投機份子,也配得上妳顧小姐?!"這是幸汝對她的責備,
林國棟曾跟她们倆在大學時結盟,成大中文系,是很有傳統的!

有一次,他们一起喝下午茶,林國棟憤慨的說"我们中文系讀出來,就是要追新聞,要用文學渡人,不能保持自己的形像,要取之於社會,用之於社會!".

這就是顧加宜成為Everyday 新聞社的記者的初衷

"我毀了我自己!我甚麼人都渡不到!國棟!我们都失敗了!"顧加宜在心裡吶喊

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是老編不要顧加宜原來的路線,就是法政界,顧加宜在法政界沒有人面,而且她是法學論著的門外漢,曾經,她為這條路線去補習,最後補到老編叫她走路,她哭著求"到底你要我寫甚麼?"


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張X榮自殺的消息一到線上,顧加宜高聲喊"我接!我一定可以!", 顧加宜連夜飛到香港,張X榮的豪宅,那棟房子非常整潔,顧加宜不停的翻閱她找得到的書信,最後在一本筆記裡看見一段話,
"我走了!因為沒有好電影能演!"

臺灣人過去為甚麼吃檳榔之趣談

臺灣男人以前很喜歡吃檳榔,而且吃紅色的,

那是為了嚇女人!

尤其是中老年人,老婆慾如虎狼,丈夫要打拼,孩子生完了,

所以嚼檳榔暗視口交,女人看到男人的血盆大口,

就會對男人倒胃!

但聽說吃檳榔防蛀牙??

神鬼交易續集

我認識一個人,他跟神做交易,神問他:你要快樂還是成功?
他說:我要成功不在乎快樂!
結果他活在一切都是名牌的,可是很沮喪的世界裡!

最近,他跟我說他懺悔了!

懺悔就可以重新交易,你可以問上帝要你做甚麼,你只想要得到喜樂,或者其他聖寵....

這是跟神交易的狀況!

可是真的有人跟鬼交易,跟鬼交易,最後就是成為鬼!

齊物論讀後感

莊子在文章中介紹甚麼是大道,也就是甚麼是造物主的觀點.

齊物論與相對論相斥,

指與非指,馬與非馬的比喻,是存在論,

不是馬,是騾子,就認騾子的命,不要再用馬的特性來評估牠!

比如埋怨騾子沒馬耐跑,騾子不荷重之類的比較!

這就是讓高低,美醜,大小,不再對立,成為自己的存在!

齊物論的偉大在於,所有的物與非物,都來自造物主的愛,

造物主的愛就是生生不息的道!

齊物論剛開始所討論的"何謂天籟?",

天籟就是莊子的齊物論!

Jeremy Brett Told Me in Dream.......

Last night,Jeremy Brett told me,he reborn as Prince George!
He told me because I felt pity that he died so early!

死亡交易

宗教就是死亡學,幫助人類正視死亡.

基督徒做善事,換取上天國的門票.

佛教徒做善事,換取成佛的希望.

成佛不是成功,是解脫輪迴,進入西方極樂世界.

宗教的交易,不是為人間的榮華富貴.

宗教的交易,是求死得其所!



note.朱西甯先生有感"死了以後還有幸福,就是追求宗教的善報"

坦白面對青春痘

年輕人應該坦白面對青春痘,該擠破擦乾就擠,看到有人養痘子不敢擠,真得令人坐立難安,
即使有疤也是美,疤就是黯沉!

青春痘會產生是因為性壓力,只要保守就會有青春痘,就是以思春為恥!

惠安的智慧

粉刺就是汗腺分泌,只要喜歡運動,粉刺就免不了產生,即使養成用手帕的習慣,也是在所難免
沒有粉刺的人,是粉紅色骷髏,通常搭配沒有任何皺紋的如磁器般頸項,這種女性是妖姬,大部份都是演歌星!

傻女生!不要再求毛細孔小!不要再花一堆錢控制出油量 !
毛細孔明顯的女生,才是男人的朋友!就是中性!

日記 2013/12/7

昨天在網上打完英文小說,便感覺到這是成功的作品,覺得揮別了不信任,取而代之的是包容.我想,我進入了更大的我!

但是今天我是毛躁的人!這其間是因為我好奇菜市場一件一百元的名牌,可是我怎麼換都不滿意,怎麼穿都不適合,所以最後我把百元衣丟進資源回收!其實,名牌賣一百,一定是造過業的衣服,不可能是乾淨的東西,老闆說是新的我不相信!

下午我去社區裡的家庭理髮店剪頭髮,我剪到肩膀,看來俐落許多,留太長的頭髮,最後打結是很煩人的事!

但有趣的是,我剪之前,店裡已有兩個客人,一個在吹,一個在等.在吹的是阿嬤,師傅調整她的禿頭,貼髮片,再塑型!貼髮片之後才有活力!不然很像罹癌!

另外一個婦人,一邊等一邊瞇眼,快要禁不住睡意,而且她身上香汗淋漓,因為她受孕了!聞味道就知道一個人是甚麼價!體味就是性學!我已經是觀察味道的獨身主義,只要有異味,就成為偵探,冷眼旁觀!

然後我騎微笑單車去繞繞,我騎車技術欠佳,但是很愉快,騎到市政府,到誠品看看年輕人,我覺得誠品簡直就是日本殖民地,但是,臺灣年輕人剛開始想創造甚麼,去那裡觀摩是可以行的路!

現在夜幕低垂,我在筆記本上交待一整天........

惠安講古-----吃馬肉的秦缪公

春秋時,有一年,秦國鬧飢荒,問晉國能不能借糧,結果晉國想要趁虛而入,攻打秦國,秦國也不甘勢弱,晉秦交戰於韓國.

戰情剛開始,是晉國的馬陷入泥濘,秦缪公追趕晉君,卻被晉軍圍捕,秦缪公受了傷,眼看秦軍勢弱時,從沼地裡衝出三百個野人,暫時衝散秦晉的膠著.

之後秦缪公心生一策,請三百野人吃受傷的戰馬肉,和喝酒,於是三百野人願為秦缪公效力,縛擄晉君,秦國於是反敗為勝!

小朋友,關於這個故事,你们有甚麼看法?

男人的酒肉朋友,是賣命的友誼!

所謂的秦晉之好,是敵人間的姻緣!

Helen Was Alone chapter.3

Soonly that old lady took off,and Helen was alone again.She hung that amber-liked crystal on her backpack,and she could see Shetzu was there!

Helen felt,Shetzu was a shabby town,but very timid and peaceful.The streets were narrow,very few cars,the grocery stores were old and small.However,Shetzu's elementary school were full of laughter,Helen could feel,they were heavenly joyful.

The bus slowly passing by the town,deeper and deeper,it looked like a isolated and be forgotten place,messy buildings were everywhere,but that moment,the sky become brighter and bluer !

They arrived the Navy Basement,Helen couldn't see different from the outside,it looked like a normal school,but when she walked in,she saw young soldiers train themselves with discipline ,and they were strong and strict .Helen wondered ,"Could I visit this place without register in first?",but she could feel ,those men at this basement wanted to ignored her,a woman visitor!A single woman!

She was used to be ignored ,because God wants Helen alone.
She took walk with conservative attitude ,but no one looked her,she watched everything!
 At the back of the basement,there was a tower ,"Maybe it is just what them've said ---a deserted light house!".She couraged herself up and step up to the top.

In front of Helen,the Danshui river spreaded upon the field,countless egrets and other seagulls stay on the mangrove forest,the sun shining through the cloudy flakes and show the way the river melted into ocean.
On the shore ,the young Navy soldiers play vessels,they sang joyful songs and aim goal on the Glory of our Nation.

Helen was very moved,but a question occur to her"These young men are so faithful for life,but what is my faith for my life?"And she felt God talked to her behind the cloud ,
"You should be like yourself and reach way!",
"What is my way?"Helen asked,
"You are searching for truth,you will find truth if you love!"
"I promise I'll stop hurting anyone !"
And God smiled.

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For many reasons,Helen's father choose  to work oversees,but Helen believed in his love,because she could feel him were praying for her for always.Helen's Mom had finished a wrong relationship,Helen forgave her,
and Helen liked to wait her Mom cooking a meal for the family.At last,her Daddy gave up money,and turned back to home.

One day at night,Helen was alone in the bedroom,she couldn't sleep,and she found a dimming light,it was that amber liked crystal ,and she knew-------At the next station,love will happen.

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惠安講古----謝郭同夢

中國古代的浙江省,會稽縣這個地方,出了一個叫謝奉的人,他和永嘉縣的太守--郭伯,交情很好.

有一天夜裡,謝奉突然夢見.....郭伯和人在錢塘江上玩賭博,並且為了爭財吵翻了天,因此水神對他發怒,郭伯掉進水裡淹死,然後謝奉處理郭伯的後事.

隔天早上,謝奉趕忙去找郭伯,他们先是一起下圍棋,一會兒,謝奉才說:你可知道我今日來意?,郭伯一愣,謝奉於是一五一實的說出那個夢,郭伯聽了,吃驚地說:我昨天也做了一模一樣的怪夢!

沒多久,郭伯去如廁,突然氣絕身亡!

而,謝奉果然一手包辦郭伯的後事,就像他在夢裡承諾的!

和尼采聊聊精神病

尼采:我知道妳的痛苦是進入阿鼻陀地獄!

妮妮:請問佛陀,阿鼻陀地獄是甚麼境?

佛陀:阿鼻陀地獄沒有血光之災,沒有殺身之禍,可是痛苦的不想活

妮妮:我以前在極端的病態時,很怕被看出來我要死不活!所以放棄一切成就!

尼采:妳羽化了!就是修成正果!但妳還沒成佛!

妮妮:為甚麼我進阿鼻陀地獄?

尼采:色業沒有生產,就是色業空!

妮妮:教授,那請問你的病態是甚麼?

尼采:就是靈感複雜!

佛陀:妮妮,只要進阿鼻陀地獄就沒有退路,一定要得到空!妮妮是空靈的少女,是她的本心!
阿鼻陀地獄只有處子才能進!

妮妮:那閻浮世界是甚麼?

佛陀:就是人間

Helen Was Alone chapter.2

"Hey,Helen,why not join us?We will play ball in the gym !"
Helen's classmates calling her from her back,and they were on their way to school.
"Helen,are you crying?What's wrong?"
Thomas was the first one to find out Helen was very upset.
"I'm just fine,it was dusty and windy!"
"But I didn't feel it!"
The shortest boy in the class Johnny said.
"Silly boys,I said I'm fine!"

Cindy walked fast and hold Helen's hand .She was Helen's best friend from elementary .Helen received a note on small paper from her,and the bell was rang ,kids ran to school.But,Helen didn't join them......


It was a map,title with"Secret Lighthouse".
It was located in Shetzu sand bay ,nearby Tamsui river.Helen had heard of Shetzu ,but it was a isolated place with very few habitant.Helen wondered if she adventured in this day,and give up the final exam!

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This morning it was still grommy and humid ,but Helen want be alone!

In the bus station,she couldn't know which direction was correct .It was at 8:30,business people hurried passing by,Helen felt several eyesight on her ,which were very unfriendly,because of the uniform she dressed.Obviously,she ran away school,and people didn't understand how tough she felt.It's neglack !
For a very sensitive girl!

At the crossroad ,standing a bagger ,dressed in overlarge clothe ,Helen talked to him,"If I give you money,could you give me your shirt?"Helen wanted disguise !"It's dealt !"
Helen gave the bagger 100NT,and she sat beside  him on the road,shared a very big sandwich with him.
"Where are you going?"
"I'm going to Shetzu,to visit a Secret Lighthouse!"
"I've heard of Shetzu,but where is the Secret Lighthouse?"
"Neither me know!"
"But if you wanted to go to Shetzu ,you could took Bus Nr.5 !"
"Thank you!Do you want to eat more?"
"I've enough,happy trip!"
"Bay-bay!"

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Helen was lonely in the bus,outside the window ,the tall buildings covered the skyline,the MRT was still in construction .Taipei was so grey in this Autumn!Helen wanted to forget her unhappy family,she wanted to see what beyond the darkness,she was pity without a foresee power ,but she want find hope ,day after day,she made perfect score at school,but what could she reach?She didn't know the reason she live!

Behind two stations after the Shopping Center,a old woman carried a little boy ,got into the bus,and sat beside Helen.Helen was curious about them ,because that boy was a quiet child,and his grandmother was very elegant.
"If you are grandson and grandmother?"
"Yes,we are,and my grandson is a very good boy!"
"Where are you going to ?"
"We are going to Shetzu,we live there!"
"Shetzu is a sandbay ?Or a island?"
"It is a delta ,and very traditional.Are you a tourist?"
"Yes!I will travel alone today."
"If you are doing your school paper about Shetzu?"
"Emm......close to be !I wish to discover !"
"I could see you are very strong in character,do you know there is a lighthouse at the Navy's Basement?"
"Can I visit there?"
"Of course !But you must to be a strong and righteous girl,because the soldiers there are very strict !"
"I will be very humble and tough in front of them!"
"Why do you travel along ,tell me the truth?"
"My parents don't want me,they don't care about me!I'm deserted!"
"But ,I could see you've been blessed and treasured ,you see,you are so peaceful!
If any deserted child could be!You should think clearly ,what's wrong with people you love,
but not only think about yourself!"
"Emm.......I wish my Daddy come back,he want make a fortune but he can't!"
"You cannot bin your family,but you could feel them!"
"But I could felt my Father will never be like what he was!"
"However,you will grow up to be a little woman ,no one can stop growing with the time,but in memory your feeling is enternal!"
"But why didn't my Mother come home last night?"
"Telephone her!If you wondered!"
"I will,when I recharge me phone!"
"My little friend,here is a gift I want you keep!"
Helen took it over ,it was a wired transparent but spotty crystal ,and as light as amber!
"Thank you!Aunty !I will never forget you!"

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