Summer Vocation

I dated my friends for trip.
And it was a very sunny day.
My rabbit said
"Let's go to the lily pond!"
And very happy was I, said
"Yes,let's go!"

Violin sang with himself..
melt into the Orchestra of Bugs!

My rabbit wasn't busy.
Only looking for the Gold Fish!

"One fish!Two fish!And over there!
It was a trutle!
Did you see!
How wonderful was the Summer Vocation!

Chloe's Dream

After the old story.
Daphnis joined war,and died .
Chloe was pregnant .
In her dream,Daphnis became angel and told her.
"I'll prepare your place in the heaven!"

Fairy Tale 1

I stood under a tree,a very big pine tree which no one could see the top,and there was very quiet with warm breeze,in May!
No other kids came to play here but only me!I found here just today and very first!
Although I didn't know if my schoolmates would know that I escaped the exam,but,who cares!I didn't dream to be a somebody like a Ph.D ,but just never be bored!
I opened my package and there was a gift from my younger sister Lora,it was a story book called 1001 nights ,with a lots of amazing illustrations inside, must be very expensive,but Lora said she had no idea who desert it on the shelf of our chamber,where only spiders live in!
I could hear the bees were busy and the stream in the woods was singing happy songs,it was without the limits of time ,and I even forgot if I am a Chinese or a Arabia!
After I read through the stories it was very late,and the Moonlight appeared.I closed the book and murmured
"If only I could make three wishes to come true!"
"And,what is your first wish ,Steve?"
It was a voice from behind,when I looked back,there was a drawf  who carried a very big bag,and dressed in a large red sweater,green short pants,and a purple hat.I wasn't so surprised for I've always believe in Gene's world,and my best friend Paul had told me many stories about the other world!Paul was very shy in class, but
he  always smiled,like hiding secrets !
"Are you a drawf?"
"Basically!"
"How did you find me?"
"My master sand me here,because you didn't go to school!"
"Ha!I know it must be Paul!"
"Basically!But only for human world!"
"I remembered he told me he was a deserted infant and many Gypsy adopt him!"
"Truly!Gypsy are all like genes but they have never felt proud of it!"
"Paul said they've learned to disguise and melt into layman's world!"
"My master said you are very much interested in history!"
"Maybe!But today's exam is about symbol logic which I couldn't even like it!"
"For me,a drawf with very silly head,I felt logic like headache !"
"I wish I am a drawf and run out of school for ever!"
After it,a star fall upon my forehead I felt the electric cross my body,I became smaller and smaller,till the same size as my companion.
"Am I a drawf now?Look how large is my package!Hardly could I put the story book inside!"
" You must not go home,we drawfs have very different life!"
"Show me!"
And I must tell you,I had dressed in small clothes as my companion,and a pair of shinning boots!
"And then,what's your name,since I am Steve as you have known!"
"I'm Bibo,from Very Old family,full name is Mr.Bibo Very Old!"
"Ha!It's unusual,I'm Steve Dickens!"
"And now you should call Steve Dickens Very Old's Best Friend!"
"It's a long title!"
"Absolutely!"
"I'm very hungry,are you hungry ,too?"
"So am I!Fallow me!The party will begin very soon, and the kind Gypsy will cook us big dish!"
I carried my package on shoulder,and I felt that if I want the other two wishes,I must be with1001Nights!
"Bibo!Let's go!"
We ran in the forests ,the silver Moonlight show us a path on ground ,I fallow Bibo,the narrow paths wandering between the bushes!But drawfs have very strong feet and never know tired!We ran and ran till the bank of stream.
"I could see the bonfire!Bibo!"
"Yes!It is the gypsy's camp!"
I could hear them sing strange songs and the sound of Zither!
"Steve!Don't speak a word before me!"
"Of course!"
A beautiful short girl--who was a drawf,too--carried a basket of fish came to us!
"Bibo Very Old,here you are!Why are you late today?Ya,I see!You bring us new friend,a very green drawf but actually a human-being!I could smell it!"
"I'm Steve...."
"He is Steve who deserve three wishes and Very Old received!"
"Hello!Steve!I'm Jenny Very Young,who is kind and diligent ,and...."
"And not always pretty,especially in bad mood!"
"Bibo you big mouth!"
Miss.Very Young's face turn into green and hair turn into red!
"Jenny,you bad tempter again,look at your green face!"
"Come Steve!"
Many Gypsy surround the bonfire ,they were singing and dancing,drawfs roasted the fish and beckon ,they sharing the beer.
And the leader of this group is an elder ,who has snow white beard and dressed in a red scarf.He smiled to me and said
"Steve ,would you tell us a story?"
"Of course ,I have many wonderful tales which my father told me and Lora!"
"But we haven't read that story book,that one,you collected in the heavy package!"
"You mean 1001night!Let me read for all of you!"
The drwaf sat around the bonfire they make hot chocolate with marsh mallow,and the Gypsy ,who weren't fear cold sat outside with Drwaf ,and it was very quiet !Owls watched us with curiosity on the oak tree,and seemed like they had know everything!
I open the book and read about Aladin's wishes,and I couldn't help to murmur
"How I wish to say goodnight to Lora,or she would sleepless!"
All of sudden ,I felt a star fall upon my forehead and the electric cross my body,then I was at Lora's bedroom.Lora,who was five years younger than me and she is seven years old.I saw her knelt in front of Holy Cross and pray"Father!I wish Steve was fine,and I believe in he only want to adventure,just like what he had always dream for.Father please be with him!"And I saw her tear on cheek.
"Lora ,I am here,behind you under the chair!"
"Oh!My goodness,why are you so small?"
"Lora,the book you gave me has magic power,if I make wish with it,it will come true!"
And I told her what did I see and heard
And she insist that she must read that story.And it was only the beginning.
Fantasy never End!

Embrace of Love

Where is my home?
When I look into my soul,all I found is lost!
But,you!
You share the friendship with me ,
And we become----two stray birds!
But,we must find our home!
Why do you so careless,daydreamer!
All of a sudden we heard----melody of harmony!
Like a song without rule,but full of greeting!
There it is!
Between the mountains the Sun waked up!
The wind swallow us with embrace of love!

Morgen Gedicht

Bin ich allein?
Fremd bin ich auf der Welt!
Was ist die liebe?
Wenn ich  nicht der Wahrheit wissen?
Warum die Menschen liebe nur auf dem Phantasie?
Was kann ich findet, zwischen der Wahrheit und das Phantasie?
Wenn der Wahrheit immer hasselich,und das Phantasie schone?
Warum die Menschen liebe wie betrunken?
Warum keine Menschen der Wahrheit liebe?

Bin ich allein?
Ich leben zwischen Phantasie und der Wahrheit.
Das ist ein besonder schwerig Art!
Weil ich  schone und richtig beide suchen!
Das ist naturlich ein schwerig Ziel!

Aber !wenn ich mit der Gott Phantasie?
Danach konne ich liebe und wissen!

Auf den Liebe fur Gott findet ich das Wahrheit und die Liebe!

Die Kannichen

Wo bist du?
Wo ist mein Kannichen?
Bist du da?Zwischen das große Baum?
Höre mal!
Der Wind war sang eine liebe Lied!
Wenn am die Wiet Weg deine am libesten Freund immer dir denken!

Der Morgen Gedicht

Jeden Morgen aufstehen ich mit neun Hoffenung.Aber manchmal bin ich zu langsame und leer im Geist danach

findet mich keine genau Ziel.Und was würden ich zu werden ohnen das Büche lesen wenn am Morgen hören  ich das Lied die Vögel sang ?

Kleine Vögel ,du bist nicht allein,es gibt mein Freundschaft mit dir zusammen!

Für lange Zeit wohne ich  im allein Zimmer ,wenn die erst Vögel sang,aufstehen ich.Und suchen ich die neun Gedicht zu schreiben.Manchmal wurden ich Bibel lesen oder ein tasse Tea zu trinken .Und ein bisschen später findet ich neun Idea für das Leben.

Eigentlich wisst ich nicht was ich bestimmt zu machen oder nicht zu machen,weil ich doch wie ein Vögelein spielen zu selbst.,und sang ich zu Himmel wiesowie mein liebe St. Fransiz vom Aziz !

Note-----about heaven

I don't know how long was the night.But I almost sleepless,and I saw myself try to find out my dream,I mean,the dreams that belongs to me,for I couldn't feel my ego,and I got lost when I melt into another soul,who was a giant and saint ,then I couldn't different what was me ,and what was the impact my idols brings to me.My "idols" means not"many gods" but the "great minds" in history.I'm a student who study great minds,however,I had always made fault!
Some people said their desire a unique mind!But I 'm just eager want to learn  how could I see further and deeper,not like an innocent and ordinary woman.
I love the world very much,but somehow I belong not here,because heaven is my destination.I believe in we come to the earth to learn ,and the earth is our school,and if we know what is truth and love,we will find the way to heaven.You would ask me,what does heaven mean,I think it is eternal joy and peace,where every good soul share love and freedom,and I am willingly to sell out all my property in order to win heaven!
And I don't know if we must all become Jesus then we would be allowed into heaven!I think we must fallow Him!
I was a child who doesn't like to listen to preach.But now I've learned how to listen to truth which I am thirsty for!
I don't know if the world on earth is only illusion and only heaven is true,but I know part of our spirit on earth will be the equipment for heaven,which I think is a good and sharing heart!
Why so many people believe in life is a contest or fighting?It's so tiredsome,isn' t it?And the way to heaven is not at all a contest!But maybe we should fight to shine with the light of Jesus!
I think I am so old!I will be older than Jesus' mortal life on earth!But I'm not at all wiser than Jesus!How could I do more for people I love!
I feel death is very nearby,and I must not be so childish anymore!
Jesus!You've always known,I am searching for nothing but your kingdom!

The Last Train to Dreamland

The last train to dreamland.
Was it !For a tired traveler from very far away.
It was,but wasn't it ,
A coincidence which happened in a miserable world.

Nothing was there ,would it be?
The traveler didn't know an empty dream.
But it was the last train to dreamland!
And it was there ,when he was very young!

The traveler was tired and exhausted ,
The train twinkle with dim light at night .

Nothing was there,wouldn't it?
He doubt with himself,
How could anybody dream,
In this miserable world!

So,it wouldn't be a dreamland,isn't it?

The last night train ran on the wide field.
Rain drops knocked the window ,
It was a storm at night.
But bizarrely was ,the moonlight sparkling  like searching!
And the cold wind blow like roar.

The last train ran slowly on the field.
With a dimming green light endlessly ran.
No other passenger was there,
Beside our traveler.

But, why nobody wanted to go to the dreamland?
It might be deserted,like a old story!

He fall into sleep.
In his vague conscious,the storm roared his name with anger.

It was the last train to dreamland.
And the train stop .
The traveler waked up.
At dawn with the fragrance of dew.
He saw his grandfather sitting on his old rocking chair and smile.

And he said "It is a beautiful day,isn't it?"
His grandfather said"My child it is only a dream!"

The Lost Soul

Crossing the storm ,there was the rainbow.
Shining there,was a church in the cloud.
My soul was there,
Sound slept with other secrets.
But I hadn't known!
Why the church was locked?
"I got to find my soul!"
I fly till heavenly high!
Zeus said,
"Poor bird!Where are you going?"
"I got to find my soul!"
"When your mind was as great as your soul,
You'll become a universe!
And every spell will be released!"

Begin with Voyage

Clime up the mountain.
You will see your future express .
Expressed like the blue ocean.
And we will hold you there.
In the church with your childhood memory.
Far away,your friends will come to pick you up.
It's your decision!
To leave,or stay!
But never forget,how did you love in my arms.

A Snail's Dream

Why the thunder knocked like trying to break the sky into pieces?

I was covered in the blanket lay on the bed!
Stared outside the window ,yes it was a miserable day!
The grey sky pressured me,raindrops was there
Asking me,where was the sunshine!

I wouldn't want to know the world,
But He insisted to knock me up,
Would anything change?
Under this miserable sky?
I couldn't remember who I am,
I couldn't know if it was day or night,
I felt myself as a jerk ,and not going anywhere!

I hunch myself in the blanket,
The storm was still there,
And I didn't see myself,

Am not I a snail?
Where is the blue lark?

I am only a snail,
Deeply sink inside the blue ink,
And as slow as dying!
Crawling through pages of literature,
And everywhere is my disliked marks!

I heard the thunder so harsh just like fate,
What could I do?
Yes,I heard your words!
But I am not going anywhere!
Because I am only a snail!
And not  doing  harm to any other creature!

I hunch myself in the blanket,
And I disliked the weather!

But gradually the storm was gone,
I saw angels deliver the Gospel to every Meek soul,
They rolled from heaven to earth with the sunlight!
And I was awakened!

Am I a snail or a Blue Lark!?

失眠這個毛病

睡不好一直是我的大麻煩!自從少年時,就常常和周公談不攏!回憶起童年午修時間時,趴在桌上,把新收集的貼紙,放在大腿上,仔細端詳著!很難入睡,一直是我的毛病呢!

但我記得更年幼時,甚至不知道睡覺要閉眼睛,但是童年還是不留情的溜走了!

我也不知道自己長大以後,為甚麼被認為是有精神病的人!我不是耍怪!但是正義與邪惡永無休止的戰爭,似乎是我精神上永遠的困擾!我記得少年時我在夢裡看見光明和黑暗拉扯著我的靈魂,我堅持要光明的一方!而那時, 我還不認識耶穌 !

有很多次,我覺得很疲倦,我被病態糾纏的很累,所以選擇放棄追求外在的目標,天主為我點上了一盞靈燈,在我快被黑暗擊倒時,天主的愛是我為一的信心!曾經我的理想瓦解,天主告訴我,我的靈魂會得到救贖,因為我已決定走上悔改的路!不會再撐在那裡,以為自己功課好就是聖人,背的出四書五經,就應該道貌岸然!

那最近我是怎麼睡著的?其實,我沒幾天就半夜起來吃一點點安眠藥,這個藥不是天天吃 ,偶而吃,比較有效!睡不好時,我發現自己往往是在心裡不原諒人!已為自己信主,別人的立場都被我否決!

"原諒別人的罪,如同主也原諒我的!"
"不要論斷人!你用甚麼升斗給人,主也用甚麼升斗給你!"

只是有時候,會覺得有點委曲,但離開了鬥爭,就是青青溪水邊!

一支草一點露!你說是嗎?

依稀記得孩提時,張著眼睛,在夜裡,不知道睡覺要闔眼,可是沒有煩惱,最後也不知不覺睡著了 !現在我也漸漸不在乎我的精神病了!不是因為我和罪惡妥協,是因為天主是我的避難所!

Note 2011.10.11

Today,I empty myself.And feel what God wishes me to do.God is the best teacher for everything.And so much i wish to silent myself and hear Him.
My feeling for life is begin from the sincerely obedience for my fate .
My fate is my cross,and I carry it then fallow God!

No one could run away from fate,I wouldn't envy others' fame and wealth ,but somehow I am just like a little prince,live in a planet of my own.Sometimes very lonely but still joyful!

Some day ,I might live in another where but not my Taipei,but I only request God for a mind in Heaven.
And He told us,If You Ask,I Answer!

玩顏色

遊戲

老房子

Note -------for Art

I want to see inside myself,to know what do i feel and love.Only when I observe myself I could observe the world.
Lately,I use painting and photos to represent myself.And what I want to show is a mind with a view.
Yes,it is my mind,and I try to know all my sensations!
For an artist,am not I so philosophic?
Sense and Sensibility
When I sense myself the world become my sensibility!
I wish to know myself first then discover the world with beauty or sometimes shame!

兩隻小兔

我換了新畫具,真有趣!

Die Letzte Zikade

Ich gehört dir!
Im Wald ,dabei die Bachlein,
Sie sang zu mir,
Mein liebe Feundlein ,Herr.Zakade!

Ich sucht dir am erst Sommer Morgen!
Sie spricht zu mir,
"Wir sang zusamme,bist tot!"

Und denn ,jeden Tag ich  mit dir sangt,
Die Stimmt wie Echo über der Berg!
Der ganzen Sommer ist unser Konzert!

Einig Tag war ich krank ins Bett,
Sie immer sang zu mir sowieso  am liebsten Freund.
"Vielleich ich tot werden!Könne Sie mir vergessen!"
Aber die Zikade anworte nicht!
Seine Echo aufspreizt  mein ganzen Geist.
Sowieso am liebsten Freund!

Am der Herbst  worden ich gesund,
Ich fragt"Wohin ist unser neun Auswertung?"
Die letzter Zikade am Baum sagt
"Nicht wir vergessen!"

Heute mein Mutter sagt
"Wo ist deine Jacke?"
Es war ein kalt October Morgen!
Ich suchen mein Freund im Wald!
Aber findet ich nur seine Jacke!

Denken mich immer unsern Sommer Konzert,
Aber,das nächste Sommer,
Bestimmt wir unser neun Liebe Lied!

The Universe After Death-----a note

What is death for you?
My dear friends !When you must give up what you used to and reach another place!
Why do people afraid of death?
Because people cannot see what would life be there and we love earth for it is so far we could see.
I know how people sorrowed for their dead relatives or even pets,
My pet,a rabbit was dead for two years,he died with painful disease,I hold him in arms and told him in mind
"Die in MaMa's arms!"then his life passed away in front of me.It is the direct moment I saw life pass by.
But I couldn't see him living doesn't mean we don't love,many times I could still  feel him under my knees and look at me with wondering eyes saying"MaMa I am still here!"

I don't know how great is human beings in front of the all mighty creator?
If some one,as great as Dickens or Beethovan ,their spirit,would it ever influence the universe?
God has never told us He built the universe for human being,many animals and creatures were made before us.Although in Bible He said He wish Human to be leader of creatures.It might because only human were made with God's image ,but, if God created the world for human beings?
Or human beings were too much self esteem!

Chinese said a hero would dead but with eternal fame,and it is so much like eternal life in Christian .
I mean when a genius or saint passed away from earth their spirit would never end.
I don't know if it should be my goal or anyone of my readers.
But when we know the great of universe how could we certain a human being would be any important ?
Would the universe ever cared about human history?
If the universe ever cared about if I am saint or sinner?

I know the universe so little,and you would laugh me so innocent!
But I believe in heaven,it is where I will see Jesus and my Master friends!
But,where is heaven?
Heaven is inside our soul or in some place of the universe?
If the unknown universe would be a place our soul rest?
Do you afraid?Because it is unknown?

So much I wish to be with God travel in the universe with out limit and boundary.
Therefore,I believe in God and His words,because only He would be my direction,and then my soul won't stray in the universe lonely and cold!

Next time when I travel with God in the universe,I will remember to bring a heavy jacket for my arrogant friend Nietzsche!

Last Lark in Heaven

Many times ,I asked myself,What am I pursuing?And what I found is disordered ideas and forms.This world hadn't known me,and now it deserted me,for I don't know my character in this world,how could it know me first?

Crossing this river I will reach home,a place I have forgotten for many years.The  Autumn is still poetic like long time before.Long ago when Mr. Winegartner was living,and I was his favorite child in the class.He would watch me writing like I watching my puppies running ,the same adorable sight.And I would ask him "Father how long should my composition be?"He told me" As long as a love story would be."And I asked him again with curiosity "But what is love?"

When I reached my home town,kids stared at me with questions.I hadn't known how do I look like,but seems like people had already forgot how did I playing the piano in the church as a student,and I dared not to ask how was my choir and klavier.But the church was still there with a golden dome and Holy Cross.My house had deserted beside the church yard.Which was surrounded by apple trees and bushes .I lived in this house,
till my nanny told me "My young master,your parents had a accident,they were dead on their way to Africa!"
I was only six ,and I said"Then I will never be to Africa!Never again!"I didn't cry,why should I cry if my parents had always travel without attention for my education?After that, Father Winegartner adopt me,and he was very old and kind.I must learn how to write and think,but mainly,I study composition with him.He was a quiet man,when he wrote ,his hand would shiver.I was so enthusiastic when I represented my words to him.
Every time ,he told me "This is not good enough!You will improve!"And I said"How long must I wait to be a
artist?"And he had always smiled said,"As long as a love story would be!"

And,where is my love story?In these few years?Just like a spell in life,I traveled from one place to another.
And it was after my Father Winegartner left the world.No woman stay my heart,but I like them all.I couldn't have passion for romance,and I liked to be along.Some people said I am a priest but very free.Maybe this is just what I live for!

My house was covered by weed and dust.When I walked inside there was birds' nest and spider's web.I found out many old photos,some were my parents' wedding photos and many were my first baptize.And my mother was so charming and lovely,why does she leave me?

I walked to the church yard ,and sat under the apple trees,the breezing wind told me this season would be a plentiful harvest,and I was so tired.

I heard a voice,a girl was singing,with a tune I've never heard.I opened my eyes and searched for her .I saw a young lady was picking berries.She dressed in light blue looked at me with surprise .
"Who are you stranger?"
"I lived here,I mean ,very long time ago!"
"I live here,too ,till now!"
"Could you tell me what were you singing?"
"I don't know,I invent it!"
"Have you ever learn music?"
"Why should I,I belong to the choir !"
"The choir in church!I did ,too!When I was a student!"
"And you are living in this deserted house,all along?"
"I am not so certain about my future,about where should I stay......"
"Do you come back to church?"
"Why should I?I......"
"What are you searching for?"
"Nothing......I only want to know .....How long should my composition be....?"
"As long as you live and love!"
I smiled to her and she hold my hand said
"My brother,Come back to us!"

On that Sunday,the sky was so clear,seems like I could reach heaven.When I walked into the church,I saw her leading the children singing.And she dressed in Sister's uniform.When the choir sang,it was a song I was familiar with,it was what Winegartner composed when I was his child.

I sang out loud with them,and I could see she was the last lark in heaven!

我最近的作品

Solitary Game

Solitary Game

秋天茶語

秋天已經到了,不知不覺中,我胖了一圈, 但是不想刻意節食運動,只要在建康範圍內,胖一點無所謂!

每天,我都喜歡玩茶和咖啡,之前喝了一些奇茶,像女兒環和白毫銀針,覺得很有雅趣 ,但是奇茶如果常喝,容易失味,有時也有可能是受了潮,味淡了,會覺得好不心疼!現在我喝的茶,都是親戚送的,比如高山茶和東方美人,現在我不那麼講究茶具,只用有濾茶功能的馬克杯,喝的比較簡便,率真!
但是我有過經驗,因為喝和體質不合的茶,所以生皮膚病!那是很麻煩的事,可能要暫時不喝茶,也要調整生活習慣 !

上次去故宮三希堂,喝了用紫砂壺泡的包種茶,和京兆伊的茶點,覺得很舒服,有許多日本遊客,也很喜歡在故宮喝好茶!日本的淑女,喝茶很有道,我不知不覺會模彷她们,也是一種文化交流!

茶可以過濾我的想法,有時候總覺的桌上一杯茶 ,看書才定的輕鬆,我是追求精神生活的人,但是有一部份的物質,可以隨同精神成長!比如一壺好茶!

Be a Stray Bird

I felt aimless but not knowing why,if I should love a man or woman and built life with him or she?
But,what would happen if love is not as I dream for?
I play solitary game but I am happy,my sisters would marry someday,and I will marry God ,as I wish!
I am aimless but not empty,because I love my neighbors when I saw I child in need I will hold him up,
and I try very hard to love everyone as love myself!
I don't know why sometimes I hate ,and I blame myself not to hate,because something irritate me and my emotion lose balance and peace.And I would tell God,I had never want to hate!
If a relationship would make me feel strong?I don't think so!A relationship would be a gambler for me,but depend on Jesus ,He wouldn't disappoint me!
Do you know what does Jesus means about"If you ask I give,Knock the door,I will open it!"
It is talking about heaven,if all you want is heaven,you will deserve heaven,but not making a fortune or becoming a beauty!It was my secret wisdom,no one ever taught me so,but I know it,and I know only chosen people will accept it!
I felt aimless,and not knowing why,especially when my friends talking about their career and wedding life,
I know my future is death then rise into heaven,but not having babies and busy life,anyway,I don't eager to being dead.I take my time!Schopenhauer was my master friend when I was in temptation,I am not disappointed for life and love,but I see through it,and no more a butterfly like when I was a little girl !
I don't know why some people think kids are naive so do they want love,for I know life is very real once you try!Why would I accept Schopenhauer's idea?It's not so tough for me,and I am aimless but existing!
I've never known why Existence is so close to my color,when I began to ask,I 've been fascinated!But I 've never given up life and love but I wish so much to live like a stray bird!
Do you fly like a stray bird?

A Beautiful Voyage

I didn't noticed why and how my drawing are all abstract in recent years,maybe since I felt someone stole my dreams!You know I take some medicine before sleep,but I am not a unreasonable person,only if you think my thought and ideas weren't complete and it is unreasonable!I have phychic ills ,but I am very conscious and straight,just like every one!
I love to know how will I have a beautiful mind,and it is not a simple task,many times I felt only melt in nonesense
daily life,I will have a beautiful view.Because when I take it as my target I would lose it!Did I try to isolate myself?Didn't I?I was very grey in diagnose ,and extremly painful,but I've never fallen into danger or evil's temptation,now when I turn back,I know God has never desert me!
Did I heard any voice?You think you are doctor!Yes,but more like inspiration ,and I insist on to give all inspiration upon  God,for I know if I had been seduced by the way,I will fall into temptation!
In those days,no matter how strong I be faithful,they just know how to break my view!
Who are they?I don't know!Maybe some secret society .They hate my mind ,I know!And after that I wouldn't be so proud for my beautiful mind.
No!I don't believe in evil!But the truth is I've left my childhood,and human nature is not a fairy tale!Why I must to leave my childhood dreams?So do I write stories ,because I could make up my lost dreams and I am always on my voyage to a beautiful mind!

Der Gesund Gott

Fragen nicht über Leben,wenn seine gefühle immer Krank sein!

Ich wisse, aber fragen ich immer "Wenn ist die Ende meine Krankheit ???"

Was ist Gesundheit???

Warum ein Gute Geist  wurde nicht Gesund !

Warum ein Rein Seele wieso pein!

Woher ist die Gesund Leben?

Ebenso ich suchen ,findet ich nur die Krank!

Der Artz sagt mich "Du bist nicht wieso gesundlich!"

Aber mein Gott sagt mich"Die Welt ist krank!"

Ich denken und denken!

Schlafen ich nicht jeden Tag und Nacht!

Denn ich wollen Tot!Weil ich gesung nicht!Dann Leben ich nicht!

Ich schwamm bis Tot ,gehöre ich die Engel

"Essen diese Mann der Gott wurden Gesund!"

Shepherd's Plan

If I don't plan anything about anything,then everything would happen in every time!
Do you believe in this philosophy?
And you would say so"But you are not so lucky!Why do you preach?"
Than,I will be very timid and conserved ,because when everything could happen it's nothing to do with fortune!
Geek poets would say no one could change his fate,even some wizards truly count fate,but unavoidable,every wizard must dead,for only God is God,super power is under His will!
Why people were so fun with magic?
When you badly feel your life is control by enemy spell,how awful you would feel?
Why there is spell to make us lose freedom?
It is because you plan something badly and God doesn't want you have!
Spells couldn't hurt people who totally fallow God!
Everything would happen to my life  because I accept my fate, just like every creature is all the same to God!
For God,everything is GOOD!Why  must we human-beings  complain day after day?
We must dead when our time is up,but death won't do us apart if we  won't be put into judgement!
We could still be children with an innocent soul,but,if we badly want to reach something on earth He would want us fall!
I've never known what does God plan about anything,but I plan nothing myself,for He is my shepherd I shall not want!

Another Musician

I don't know if music is my life,or my soul.
Heard of too many friends talking about how do they fight and desire for music,I full of admire for them,but,
I feel if I take music as a goal,I wouldn't feel music!I wouldn't love any!
Many days I desert my instruments because of anger for myself,yes,I was angry for myself!Do I know why?
Not totally!
Many days I couldn't even sing,and I sang awfully without any sense!Do I ever anger?As you wish,I anger spiritual world because it was too harsh to me!
For I used to blindly take every tutor's way as my style,and obviously I haven't meet another tone cohere with me.And obviously ,my feeling for art is not yet understood for even myself!
But why do I feel music is so beautiful,and charming?
I could feel performing couldn't be my ambition nor plan!
And I couldn't be proud of any form.....any style ..nor fame!
My life was very hard!And it is still!

Now I don't wish to accomplish any goal for art.
Many there ,laughing me giving up,and I don't mind how would them feel,any concert wouldn't be my contribution!
And I totally admit that I am limited in front of Titans' great,therefore,I could fly as a very small lark,play game like a very small kid,and they will smile into my lonely mind saying ---My poor little Blue Lark!

A Tough Choice

This season is tough for everyone!When we know enjoyment and pleasure wouldn't last for long!
Each time when I struggle in mind for confusing, I had reached a disappointed view of life,but God doesn't want me disappointed ,and the very next moment,when I hear a bird sing ,or see a sunny morning sky,I will pick up my faith for heaven!
We live in a tough age,the only hope of our future might be our expectation for the Universe ,the universe is still God's creation and we seek Him like lark fly into sky!The universe is the Mother Nature,and the mind of God,and He open His arm to hold us!
But we've always felt lost!I don't want to debate about which one is before the other,the Universe or God,but I believe in we exist because He loves us first,and the Universe is God,what He become and create,where we live and share!
The Universe is all creation,that is the Holy Spirit!And when we recognize it ,we will be beyond live or death,time and space!Life on earth is so fragile and short,why do we insist on to want to hold a illusion target?
A illusion target when we think only material bring happiness,or to occupy is success?!

St. Francis - Brother Sun, Sister Moon - Song

Note 2011.8.19 morning

Love is to tolerance the enemy will.
Love shows itself,when conflict occurred!
Great is to love your enemy.

But only inside your heart,you pray and bless.
Even Jesus would heal only those who request him first.
And at His last moment He told God His enemy didn't know what they had done!

If we intend to love,even show love off,
It is dangerous,for we would be wound our soul and body,and have nothing rewarded !
We shouldn't give the Gold to dog!

Jesus emphasis on to love our neighbor.
It was not only neighborhood,but those who want to nearby the Gospel!

We love our enemy by prayer and tolerance,but not intend to preach and change!

夏莉的故事

"如果家裡沒有人,就玩電腦好了!"
夏莉獨自走在回家的路上,默默的想著.
夏莉覺得好奇怪,她努力維持前10名,爸爸拿到成績單,冷冷的說
"我的女兒不過如此!"
夏莉的家裡只有她和姐姐兩個孩子,姐姐海柔是她唯一的知心朋友,不過今年開始,海柔必須住在宿舍裡,雖然這樣,夏莉每一天都期待姐姐假日回來家裡.即使爸媽說
"妳姐姐跟妳一樣讀國中的時候,如何如何...."
夏莉一點也不會不高興,反而更尊敬她姐姐,每天都留簡訊給她.

夏莉戴著一副眼鏡,個子算中等偏高,梳著一把馬尾,有著很深的五官,瘦瘦的,但是不會沒有力氣跑步.她每天最煩腦的就是留海會不整齊,由其她習慣側睡,早上起來髮型總是怪怪的!同班的宣宣最愛笑她
"看的出來妳梳旁分!"
宣宣是班上個子最小的女生,她们班只有女生,每次和男生班一起上童軍客時,大家都故意顯出不在乎,男生也一副很不稀罕的樣子!

今天放學已候,夏莉和宣宣一路聊個沒停,宣宣說她和她哥哥晚上要為他们的爸爸辦慶生會,她很希望夏莉參加,但是夏莉覺得很不好意思,所以她们今天沒有一起去吃甜甜圈,她们在路口分手後,夏莉就一個人走回家.

"爸爸媽媽應該還沒有回來吧!"夏莉心想
"那不然我也晚點回家!反正才四點半!"
傍晚的風微微的吹來,感覺很舒服,夏莉故意繞遠路,經過社區的公園,夏莉還記得讀小學時,每天都到公園和其他小朋友玩遊戲,她總是伴演領袖的角色,和男生打成一片.感覺上中學以後,大家都覺得來公園玩遊戲是很土的事!可是夏莉知道,覺得某一件事幼稚,不能代表自己很懂事!
放學的學生三三兩兩的走來,夏莉坐在秋千上,和他们打招呼,小學時一起編故事的好同學,一個有點胖胖的男孩,叫作亞力,靦靦的對她笑著
"想不想一起蕩秋千?"亞力問她
"比高還是比持久?"夏莉下了戰帖
"都不比!好玩就好!"
"一言為定!"
亞力笨拙的放下書包,站在秋千上!
"說好不比!你用站的!做弊!"
夏莉也站了起來!風迎面吹著!夏莉的長馬尾,輕快地甩著!亞力吹著口哨,把功課甩掉了!
"好爽的風!"亞力說
"奇檬子!"
"妳覺得最酷的事是甚麼?除了吹風以外?"
"嗯!最酷的事是小狗跟我玩!"
"妳養過狗嗎?"
"玩過宣宣家的狗,和外婆家的小白,但我從沒養過寵物,除了小四的時後,自然課養蠶!"
"太遜了!蠺算寵物嗎?"
"應該算吧!不然是甚麼?"
"家畜.....牲口......"
"聽你臭蓋!蠶寶寶本來就算寵物!你们男生不懂!"
".的確!男生不如女生!"
"知道就好!"
他们兩個玩的不知道累,
"如果蕩到天空裡,可以把雲一朵一朵吃下去!"夏莉說
"然後再吐煙圈吐出來!"
他们笑的很開懷,
"夏莉!妳爸爸是不是太嚴了?聽說.......如果妳不想回答沒有關係!"
"嗯.....我爸有時候也很寵我,怎麼說....."
"陰晴不定!"
"很像是!也不完全是!我不想當大人的面子!"
"那妳沒把妳爸媽當面子?"
"這個嗎......."
"比如家長會,如果老師和班長尊敬妳爸爸,妳不覺得有面子!"
"你說的也是,但我總覺得爭面子,只是假的愛!"
"的確!爭面子活的很累!"
"不像自己!只是彼此利用!活的很假很煩!"
"那妳真的知道自己將來要追求甚麼嗎?"
"不管它!將來到了再說!那你呢?你將來的旅程?"
"一定要環遊世界!"
"SUPER!ME TOO!"
於是他们倆個笑在一起,不知道時間的存在.

家裡真的沒有人,連燈也沒點,爸媽一定是一起去應酬了,夏莉心想..她到廚房看有沒有吃的,一些剩菜和優格.吃優格好了!已經六點了,夏莉家在社區最靠山腳的巷子裡,是一棟平實的公寓.這個時候巷子裡沒有甚麼人車聲,聽的見蟬鳴從樹林裡一陣陣傳來.很舒服的涼秋.

夏莉並不想做功課,國一本來就還很好玩,而且海柔跟她說過,不要急著長大,玩才是學習!海柔就是這麼個與眾不同的姐姐!海柔是教育系的高才生,有一頭濃密的長髮,遺傳爸爸的酒渦,戴著一副眼鏡,當海柔第一次讀到夏莉寫的小說時,海柔說
"我該換眼鏡了!"
夏莉頑皮的說
"妳該近視,我變遠視!"
其實小時候是夏莉看她買的童話長大的,編故事是她们從小的遊戲,尤其是爸媽不在家的時候,夏莉喜歡想像自己進入幻想國,可以和動物說話,可以跟鳥一樣自由,跟魚一樣自在,海柔比較希望和王子譜出戀曲,大概是因為海柔大夏莉七歲又三個月,已經是期待愛情的少女,雖然她们的想法有很多不一樣,但海柔總是說
"我小時候也跟妳一樣"
但自從海柔住校以後,夏莉有點覺得不知道學誰,所以她央求爸媽讓她養寵物,爸說
"家裡又不大!自己都沒照顧好,還想養寵物!"
"爸!可我很無聊!姐又不在!"
"那等妳姐回來再說!"
好像這樣說了很久,爸還是不鬆口!夏莉不太確定爸爸是不是她的壓力,但是爸爸的態度有時候讓她很傷心,媽媽就比較好說話,她比較不管孩子,她總是很忙錄,不停的找許多事情來做,是個不喜歡清閒的女強人,夏莉覺得自己只是女弱人,永遠不如媽媽的不辭辛勞,也不像姐姐有早熟的智慧,總而言之,夏莉只是一個很平凡的女孩子.

她端著一杯伯爵奶茶,坐在沙發上,窗戶外是夕陽落在半山頭,小鳥啁啾的彼此對唱,九月是最美的季節,中秋節姐姐一定會回來渡假,家裡又會辦BarBeQ ,想到這裡,夏莉就覺得充滿了期待.
有一些朋友知道夏莉很有想法,但是她覺得真正能思考的人,是不會以自己的想法為傲的,只有謙虛才能更有深度,但是爸爸從來不知道她是這樣的人,只問她
"段考進步幾名?"
她總是言辭閃爍的回答
"沒有很多,只是差不多!"
在她心目中,真正早熟的是海柔,她最依賴的姐姐,姐姐不住家裡的時候,她少了一個朋友,雖然天天傳簡訊,總是不如促膝談心時的感情!
想著心事,夏莉不知道過了多久,爸媽要她和同學一起吃晚餐,可是夏莉想存錢買故事書,已經七點了,她終於發現自己餓的肚子咕嚕咕嚕叫了!
"不知道吃甚麼!"
夏莉在冰箱裡翻來翻去,找到起司,鲔魚,和吐司,應該可以自己做個三明治 !夏莉超喜歡吃早餐的料理,雖然是晚餐的時間,她還是覺得吃跟早餐一樣就很棒了!爸爸媽媽就不一樣了,他们是老骨頭,早餐總是清粥小菜,可是夏莉已經瘦瘦的,如果只吃稀飯就太瘦了!
"還要一杯鮮奶!"
夏莉乖巧的坐在餐廳裡,一個人嚼的很有勁,邊吃邊想著,跟亞力說過養寵物的事,對一個有點孤單的女孩子而言,夢想有一隻小貓或小狗是很自然的事,不過家裡也要接受牠!
吃完了一個人的晚餐,夏莉好像聽見院子裡有個奇怪的鳥叫聲,好像在那裡聽過!夏莉小心翼翼地走到院子裡,四處搜尋這個聲音的來源,夏莉發現一隻黑色底色,翅牓上有白色和寶藍色的毛的奇鳥,蹲躆在水塔上,睜大眼,瞧著夏莉!夏莉也好奇地瞧著牠!
"你在叫我嗎?"
夏莉在心裡問,深怕嚇走牠!牠好像若有所思的張著嘴,偏著頭,夏莉輕巧的放低身子,慢慢接近牠,那隻鳥真的不會怕夏莉這麼乖的孩子!奇怪牠真的蹲在同一個地方,可愛地在牆上磨擦牠的喙.然後在土壤裡翻來翻去,夏莉看牠找小蟲吃!
"你是不是餓了?我這裡有一些麵包削!"
夏莉問牠,掏出吃剩的麵包,揉成小團子,撒在牆上.
"你叫甚麼名字?你介不介意我幫你取個名字?"
那鳥兒,偏著頭,好像很好奇!
"叫你奇奇!因為你是好奇寶寶!"
"奇奇!"
鳥兒叫著!很像期待甚麼!
"那我们做朋友,好不好?"
"奇奇!"
"這是我们的密祕!我们是最好的朋友!"
"奇奇!"
"我想幫爸爸澆花,一起玩水!"
於是夏莉到園藝室裡找來長水管,套在花園裡的水龍頭上,用三分之一的水量,捏緊了水管口,水像噴泉一樣灑出去.
"奇奇,好不好玩?"
鳥兒飛了起來 ,躲過噴水,夏莉身後傳來聲音
"夏莉!妳一個人躲在這裡,害媽找不著!"
"媽妳回來了!媽媽!妳瞧牠是我朋友!"
"甚麼!是不是宣宣?怎麼沒有看到?"
"媽!不是宣宣啦!是........."
鳥兒已不見蹤影

第二天早上,夏莉和爸媽在餐桌上,
"寶貝女兒!聽妳媽說,老師選妳去參加徵文比賽,妳有沒有把握啊 ?"
"爸爸!我已經寫好了,結果怎樣我不知道!"
"拿來給爸過目一下!"
"你们很煩耶!"
"這樣就很煩!那長大嫁不掉了!"
"我也不想嫁,我只喜歡這個家!"
"話不是這樣說,每個人都須要被異性欣賞,當年媽媽和爸爸..."
媽媽接了話
"老公!她才國中 ,你說這個幹嘛!"
"因為爸爸不喜歡我!"
"夏莉!爸最疼妳,妳不知道!"
"算了,我只想自己煩自己的,不會干擾爸媽!"
"喔!寶貝女兒!別理妳爸!"
媽媽抱著夏莉的頭,親了一下!
"我吃飽了!先出門了!"
"路上小心!"
"爸媽拜拜!"

夏莉覺得爸真是無聊,一定要說一些很煩的話!
她檢查書包,作文簿已經擺好了!
"好險!這次沒有忘記帶作業來!"
夏莉要走一段山路,她家在城市的角落,不算遠離塵囂,但是到處都有綠蔭,早上蟲兒鳥兒開心地唱著歌,夏莉不知不覺也開心起來!夏莉想著一些古怪的念頭!
"為甚麼女生嫁出去,男生娶回來!為甚麼當女生這麼吃虧?"
她這個年紀的女孩,總是充滿理想,可是不切實際,但是夏莉不知道長大以後,她會很懷念這一切!

早晨的山莊,有許多棲息的鳥兒,
"我的奇奇呢?"
原來夏莉很期待再跟鳥兒做朋友,
"像鳥兒這樣自由的動物,一定不喜歡牽掛我,還是不想念牠了!"
不知道為甚麼,她不願意給任何人壓力,也許是因為她很體諒別人!但是如果被誤解,一定一肚子氣!夏莉知道自己離聖人的修養還遠的很,可是她在書上看到甚麼偉大的精神,總是會產生反省,比如被誤解的痛苦,是她放在心裡的感受,期待凡事相信與凡事順從的精神!

就在她走到山腳時,看見一個破舊的手推車上,有兩隻被關起來的小鳥,一隻是黑色的,類似九官,但不完全像,夏莉懂的鳥不多,令一隻是黃色的,非常嬌小,夏莉敢快湊上去瞧,牠们在籠裡驚慌的亂飛,叫聲很好聽,不過夏莉覺得牠们很不快樂,像在求救!這時 ,夏莉覺得奇奇好幸福,不想被看就不必被看,如果是奇奇被關起來,或者是夏莉自己成為被囚禁和壓迫的動物,一定非常痛苦!直覺的!夏莉想放生牠们!其實夏莉不是沒有想到,她可能被誤解,但是她有勇氣,做自己覺得對的事!
夏莉把籠子打開,然後跑著去學校,
"小鳥!你们自己決定要不要離開!希望你们在天主懷裡飛翔!"

夏莉在學校裡一直不說話,宣宣發現了!
"夏莉!妳幹嘛悶悶不樂的!一起唱歌!唱音樂老師新教的--在那銀色月光下!"
"我沒事啦!只是想到自己做的和別人想的不一樣........"
"怎樣不一樣?是不是妳編故事是好玩,隔壁班那個阿呆老說妳裝氣質!"
"誰理那個阿呆!"
"其實他想跟妳比較熟,妳不領情!那這樣變成妳也誤解他了!"
"我只是不覺得阿呆有甚麼好玩的!"
"所以說嘛!做自己就夠了!別人怎麼想是他们的事!"
"宣宣!妳真的有智慧 !"
"那裡的話!"
"西風的話!"
"好!我们先唱西風的話!我一部妳二部!"
結果其他同學聽見了,也圍過來一起合唱,最會彈琴的小穎,為大家伴奏 ,在歌聲中,夏莉幾乎忘記這幾天的奇遇和煩惱!

總而言之,上學是夏莉最快樂的事,像海柔說的,國一本來就還很好玩!唯一讓她们班的孩子煩惱的,就是雅芝老師隨時會調走,她们聽說很久了,老師想追求更高的理想,因為她幾乎跟海柔差不多大,還很期待冒險和挑戰,夏莉覺得這樣很勇敢,但是也很捨不得分别,因為她是夏莉最喜歡的國文老師,其它學生就不一樣了,比如說最頑皮的小葉就很期待她從地球上消失,因為雅芝老師已經電訪小葉的媽媽問清她為甚麼每天遲到!只有天知道!小葉不喜歡上學可能也是因為勇敢,聽說她只愛收集漫畫書,對所有講道理的書都興趣缺缺,小葉自己創作的漫畫曾經是班上轟動一時的話題!

這天放學時,亞力又很巧的在半路遇到夏莉
"夏莉!妳幹麼低頭走路,一付心事重重的樣子?"
"你管!"
"不敢管!不過看起來蠻好笑的!"
"可惡的臭男生!"
"女生也不見得香!"
"香也不情願被你聞!"
"饒了我!想逗妳笑而已!"
"很難笑!"
"那我報告老師說這題很難,所以妳被當!"
"你真的很愛管耶!"
"夏莉!不跟妳鬧了!妳知道宣宣為甚麼不來找我们嗎?"
"聽說她換了一台智慧型手機,分身乏術了!"
"沉溺電子遊戲,可想見得!"
"聽說那台手機是她爹地轉送她的!"
"那宣宣事業有那麼大嗎?"
"不一定要事業大,不過眼光要遠!"宣宣的聲音突然從後面追來
"宣宣!說曹操曹操就到!"夏莉笑著說
"好說!我有順風耳!你们沒說我壞話吧?"
"宣宣!妳在搞甚麼事業?兩天不見妳蹤影!!!"亞力興沖沖地說
"不算大的事業!想要用新機子拍個記錄片!"
"甚麼樣的記錄片 ?"夏莉問她
"這個嗎!還沒決定!只是希望輕鬆一點!"
"那應該算短片,以後post在youtube上,是嗎?"
"很接近,算是為13歲做個記念,我爸覺得這理想很有意義,才讓我這隻新機子!"
"那我们三個合作 ,不成功便成仁!"亞力說
"我们是三劍客!所向無敵!"夏莉接著說
"一言為定!"
"一言為定!"
"可是到底有甚麼特別的事可以拍?"
"我想拍別人想不到的,不要只有千篇一律!"
"不然我们先作記劃,才會別出心裁!"夏莉提出她的意見
"有道理,而且我们需要一個密秘基地,不要被別人破壞!"亞力接著說
"如果你们不介意的話,我家花園旁有個儲物室,自從海柔住校以後就少有人跡...."
"太妙了!可妳爸媽不管?"宣宣急著問
"放心好了!我爸媽不會管花園的事,他们只在乎應酬和事業!"
"那不然今天去一探究竟!"亞力高興的提議!三個孩子伸出手,交錯在最美麗的時光裡.

夏莉打開門,點亮了燈,看見海柔的絲巾和鞋子!
"我姐在家耶!"說著她輕巧的溜進海柔房裡
"我姐可能出去買一下餛飩麵,她回台北都要吃的!"
"妳姐房裡沒人喔?"亞力傻傻地問
"你们會餓嗎?"
"想喝涼的!"亞力老實不客氣的講
"我也是!"
"那麼........我找找......有蘋果西打.....我姐一定是為我買的!"
"那她為甚麼不在家裡?"宣宣問到
"我也不知道!先喝汽水!"
他们高興的玩著汽泡,聽著廣播,雖然那天是秋老虎,下了一半山也沒甚麼搞頭, 三個小朋友吹著風,很沒序的哼哼唱唱廣播裡的歌謠 .一會兒,海柔赤著腳走進餐桌
她濃密的長髮垂到肩上,穿著一件白T-shirt,一件牛仔褲,笑吟吟的說道
"你们小朋友真的這麼享受?!"
夏莉跟上前去抱著海柔說
"姐妳回來了!"
"夏莉的姐姐,妳好!"
"你是不是夏莉國小同班的那個亞力?"
"原來我這麼有名!"
"海柔姐姐!他只是浪得虛名!赫赫有名的應該是我!"
"妳一定是最頑皮的宣宣!"
"哈哈!宣宣妳惡名昭彰"
宣宣扮了一個鬼臉,又猛喝了一口汽水
"夏莉!姐有個驚喜給妳!"
"真的嗎?是甚麼?"
"在花園裡,我们一起去看!"
"我们也要看!"
於是三個孩子跑到花園裡
陽臺上有一個籠子,裡面是一對小兔子!
一隻胖胖的毛很鬆,耳很尖,一雙眼睛喜感十足的瞧啊瞧!
另一隻顯得嬌小,毛色半咖啡色半乳白色,眼神彷彿剛睡醒,傻傻的,很乖巧的樣子 !
"夏莉!妳要幫牠们取名字喔!"
"姐!妳是世界上最棒的姐!嗯........我想想"
"大隻的毛很鬆,很霸氣......叫辛巴!
小隻的很可愛,很有靈性......叫GENE!"
"哇!好酷的名字!竟然有小兔子跟獅子王同名耶!"
"你才知道!我们女生不是蓋的!"
三個孩子蹲在地上一會兒親了又親,一會兒餵飼料,又是抱著不肯放!
"亞力!換我抱了!我要抱辛巴啦!"
"宣宣!換我抱GENE了!"
"門都沒有!GENE已經叫我乾媽了!"
"那有這種事!最受不了妳们女生了!"
亞力抱不著兔子,索性拿起手機玩,
"宣宣!我拍妳们的記錄片!"
亞力拿著機子,兩隻兔子在花園裡散步,夏莉和宣宣追在後面跑,圍著盆栽玩官兵抓強盜,
夏莉覺得,這就是永恆的生命,和她们永恆的年少時光!

忽然,她们聽見
"奇奇!奇奇!"
"夏莉!妳看!是喜鵲耶!"
"牠是我朋友奇奇!姐!我餵過牠說!"
"奇奇!牠是辛巴,是你弟弟!你願意和牠作朋友嗎?"
"奇奇!奇奇!"
那隻鳥兒飛下來,和辛巴在草地上,好像說些甚麼,凝視著小兔子,充滿憐愛!
亞力目不轉睛的拍著!
"奇奇!奇奇!"鳥兒叫著,飛了起來,再也不回頭的飛走了!
夏莉握著海柔的手說
"是不是喜鵲會帶來奇蹟?像奇奇一樣的喜鵲?"




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Die Ewig Suchen

Was ist wichtig für ein Man die das Ewigkeit suchen?
Jesus sagt uns wenn wir  die irdischleben lassen,und denn unirdischleben findent.
Was bedeut das?
Wünschen Sie uns selbmord?
Nein!
Jesus würden nicht tot,weil die Manschen er liebe ihn mord!
Er war die Herze schmerzen mehr als die Pein die Fleisch.


Die Ewigkeit ist bist jetzt zu immer noch.
Selbmord am Erde bedeute ewigkeit ende.
Und kanne nicht besser Himmel gehen!


Jesus war tot für uns,denn wir müssen nicht unser leben zu selbst schneiden.
Order wir könne nicht mit Gott union ,weil nach sein Auferstehung unser leben über Tot genehmt hatt!
Das ist ein Prozedur,bist jetzt zu Ewigkeit!


Die sache wir lassen müssen ist das irdisch Ziel.
Zu beispiel,das luxury leben,und die Ambition.
Wir haben nur ein Ziel,das ist die Himmel!
Bist jetzt und immer noch!


Wenn wir  Himmel suchen,bestimmt es findet!

Book Review for Wuthering Heights

Long time ago,when I was a teenager,I had chances to read Wuthering Heights,I made decision to only peek the structure ,but not to put myself in.Do you know why?Because I prophet someday I will read it in original language ,and I would be fascinated,for I am someone who never spoiled my taste! 
English classical literature had no rustic and violence,because England was very civilized. 
And female writers had their own room ,because their fathers adored them!So does Bronte Sisters,I cherished their works from I've begun to read! 
Old Catherine and her daughter were very similar in looking,but different in character,the Mother was deep and sentimental,the daughter was naive and happy.I couldn't suffer when little Cathy was jailed, 
a lark lose her freedom!And did you felt that little Cathy and little Linton were the original idea of another beautiful story"The Secret Garden"! 
Besides,did you feel the slight evil of romance was redeemed ,when Heathcliff died in repent? 
To be honesty,this novel jailed my mind for a while,because of I was totally fascinated! 
I haven't seen Wuthring Heights on film,but,only words had enchanted me! 
How could I ask more? 

Book Review for Thomas Wolf's Look Homeward Angel

This is my favorite American Romane. 

Began from old Gant and his American dream. 
He was the first generation of American immigrant. 
Old Gant and his wife Eliza were tough and rustic,but, 
they knew where will be the place called HOME! 

Their children were not always liked them! 
Ben was a spirit like fellow,and always sick. 
And Eugene,our leading role,seems like selfish,sensitive,and intelligent! 

Gant and Eliza hard work for Eugene to pursue his achievement in knowledge. 
But!It was painful to grow! 
Eugene fall in love,and what he gained at last ,was a broken heart and despair! 
Ben was so considered for his dearest younger brother. 
He guided Eugene through pain then soon he died. 
Eugene was so confused after Ben's death,uncertain about living in the scholar life or to be a adventurer.At last he choose school life. 

Eugene's first love is a little bit like my favorite movie"Cinema Paradiso"! 
And I feel pity that American theater ignored this beautiful story for long!

Die Wunderbar Welt

Was können das Berg sagen?
Wenn du allein das Berg steigen!

Hören Sie die Zikade!
Es sing im Forst wie String Quartet!

Hören Sie der klein Bach!
Er schlag das Rock wie spielen die Tremmol  !

Hören Sie die Vogel!
Sie haben viellen Liebelied mit dir erzahlt!

Wo ist deine Flöte?
Bestimmt es braucht wenn du Reise!

Und das Kinder lachen,
Fragen der Sonne"Warum der Welt ist wunderbar?"

Lark Rise with Song

There was a small town,surrounded by mountains,but those mountains were actually very small,too.
However,in the valley,you would hear all kinds of birds singing,although people who live there had never truly cared!
In this small town,was a young woman,who lived with her rabbits,books,violin,and piano.However, people just ignore her, including her music.No one know why she live alone,but young men would talk about her quietness,and her age,in the tavern ,especially when they dislike their girlfriends!
Seldom did her go on street,hearsay,her family were dead in a accident,left her a lot of money,however,nor would she buy luxury cloth ,but only red carrot and the latest sheets for violin!
Sometimes,she would walk her rabbits,took a pair of rabbit into the park, sat on grass ,and read some novels written in German.And her rabbits which were both spotty ,eating the flowers surround her.
One day,the postman was a little bit late,but the people there were very meek and patient.The postman carried a package,which was very large,and with a label written "uplift".

Kids saw the postman ridding the bike,group up to fallow him and sang weird songs out loud.
"Birds said the post were late!"
"Sun said there were enough to eat!"
"Mom said we must go into bed!"
"Who receive the post will never retain!"

When the postman rode by the young woman's shabby house,he stop,knock the door and called
"You got mail,Miss Marple!"
The young woman was playing a beautiful England Folk Song---Green Sleeves ,and noticed not the voice of the post man.Kids crowded beside the window and swift the curtain,saw the young woman who possible named Miss Marple,melt in her music and kids were very charmed by her beautiful tone!
After the song,she sigh along without reason,and kids yelled!
"You got mail,Miss Marple!"
She watched through the window and said ,
"You naughty children!"
And she opened the door.
"This is your package Miss,and please sign!"
She sign her name then carried the package inside.
Kids fallow inside and asked
"Could we see?"
Kids are always curious!
"Okay!But be quiet!"Not yell too loud!"
She carefully opened it.It was a very old violin which was dark and heavy!
Miss Marple began to cried.
"My favorite teacher,and father,you passed away!"
She couldn't stop weeping,kids were very wondering!
"Miss Marple why do you cry?"
She sighed ans said
"This is my violin master's instrument!"
"If he has dead?"A little girl ask!
"I'm not certain,but what could I certain?"
"Do you play for us?With this old violin?"
She put it on the shoulder and play a beautiful song call "On Wings of Song"!
The village was echo with the romantic melody.
Many busy people still ignore the music and the young woman
But when she play,
All The Lark Rise with The Wings of Song.

Ein Neun Welt

Ich wunchen ein Neun Welt.

Wenn die Manschen und das Tier mit ein ander zu sprichen.

Wenn der Reich und die Arm beide glücklich.

Wenn wir  der Gottes Wort hören und antwort.

Wenn der Mann und das Kinder  am Wald zussamme spielen.

Ich wunchen diese Traüm .

Weil Ich deine gleich Traüm wissen.

Summer Sky

When I looked into sky.
There was soft cloud dance with lace.
How I love the summer sky!

Summer has come for one week.
And I feel the nature was changing.

That evening ,I walked on street,
In the neighborhood with trees.
The New Moon shined between the trees!
And when I try to find out.
There were twinkle stars!

I didn't know how would the stars so clear?
I couldn't help singing a song,which I made up,
To worship the New Moon Starry night!

And I believe,
The world is hopeful!

Do you believe in?

The Life Baggage

Am I alone?
Totally alone?
In a world where love is uncertain.

I couldn't see these faces.
They were my friends,
When I was very young,
But ,turn off!
All become strangers!

I was naked born.
Someday empty leave.
Why should I keep in any touch?

Don't say I am childish.
For I am certain.
I won't bring anything heaven.

These groups of people shared laughter and tear.
Suddenly,gone with the wind.
All left is the memory.

I carried the baggage of memory for a while.
Till they all lost same baggage.

Someday they walked by me.
And I ignore them.
They called me and said,
Where is your baggage?

I said,I am so poor that no property was keep!
She bitterly smiled.

Because I know.
Only when we were very young!

The Millionaire

We live in a sorrow age.
Uncertain the future.
Unexpected the fate.

When God anger.
He destroy our home with a finger.

When we cry.
He turn off ,and left.

Should we seek for happiness?
If there is any justice of happiness?
For our homes were blow up by tornado!
For our civilization become a disaster!

Many people haven't know the greedy mind.
Is what we must be judged.

Blindly they want invest in a new factory.
It will be in some place.
Which is eager to grow.
Which is tiresome of poverty.

But no one know why the lakes were dry?
No one know why the air was too grey to breath!
And they still lacks money.

The rich people said .
They only want to help.
And thank God their homeland were very clean!

Someday,there will be no glacier on earth.
And everywhere is the atom pollution.
Polar bears and Koalas disappear.
People wear mask on street.
And use iPhone 100.
Talking about politic.

At that day,
The earth turn into hell.
Human who must live here.
Are all millionaire!

Where Will We Go

I am wondering a suggestion.
If possible the Alien Beings were the dead creatures on the Earth?


Suppose the Universe continue expand.
And the Creatures on the Earth gradually dead,the number continue increase.


Would these two unknown expansion ,come from a possible reason----
Creatures on Earth would move into outer space after death.


In religion,in the Divide Comedy,the Paradios were seven planets in the outer space.
In Germany,the word "Himmel" represent both "Heaven" and "Sky".
In the old fairy tales,the poor old Mom would become a star shining high above,
and protect her children on earth.


I don't know what will our earth become
If we Mankind destroy the Earth's balanced climate.
Maybe it will be "The End of World"which is "the Day of Judgement".
God will make decision,which planet we will go to!


And I believe in there must be some planet ,as hard as hell!
And some place,as sweet as the dreamland!

團體生活與獨立創作

想起過去的學生生活,最難以忘懷的是團體的榮譽感!
一起爭取大隊接力的獎牌,一起練合唱,輸了全班一起抱頭痛哭!
這是學生生活中,最幼稚的光榮!最可愛的奮鬥!
即使畢業了這麼多年,想起來還是想笑!

目前的我,是個暫無收入的網路作家,
不知道甚麼條件才能出書,甚麼機緣才能走紅?
但是創作本身的樂趣,和被網友看到的成就感,足讓沒啥野心的我,
樂的歪歪的!

用網路創作,和學生時的生活很不一樣!
看不到別人的成績,不必穿上一模一樣的制服,看大致上相似的書籍,
可以說是很自由的生活,
但那種團體的榮譽感卻變的很抽象!

我道底存在在那一種理念裡?
變成創作時的靈感泉源!

這不是一個學號!這不是一個標籤!這是一個發現自我的過程!

寫作的人,應該要很自我!知道自己要甚麼,想甚麼!
有的時候甚至要問自己,我寫作的理念,能不能造福人群!
寫作的人,正在介紹社會新的意識型態!
不能不有使命感!

越寫越八股了!談點輕鬆的!

發現網路上的資源來幫助文章成長,是很有趣的事!
只看最紅的影集的人,很少寫的出一片天空!
雖然很多人只為了紓壓,所以才看些肥皂劇,
但不管看甚麼片子,總要學到一些自己能消化的智慧!
如果買dvd太貴了,可以玩下載,玩YOUTUBE!
像我最愛看Holmes 而且只看Jeremy Brett 演的,
雖然目前我寫不好偵探小說,
但是看這種精彩的文學戲,是我的樂趣!!!

親愛的朋友!
你的部落格裡,是不是有你最新的消息?
我彷彿聽見你的聲音!
像一隻快活的雲鵲!

How Much You Love

What will I find?
Crossing the river,till the next mountain top!                          

"Concentrate on every step!"
How my conscious said.

But ,if nothing was beyond,
Why should I adventure?

The sun was behind the cloud!
And it wasn't clear,
My next passage!

However,
Once I couldn't endure it.
I might totally lose!
Lose from the game with God!
How He built and desert me!

Cause I couldn't foresee,
If the next mountain top,
It is dreamlike!

Once I turn back,
Nothing even a chance!

My steps were harsh!
Danger to fall off!
Danger the biting snakes!

A Blue Bird received me,
On a branch of pine tree.

He looked at me like a wonder!
Then flight between the valley.

I fallow him!
The ray of sun broke out from the sky!

It was a castle in the cloud.
Where God sat and smiled to me!

"Little one!How much you love me?"

"As much as how you love me!"

The Traveler and Deer

The voice of wind,.echoes in the mountains.
The traveler was tired.
His arms sored ,and legs were pain.
Where to rest?
He asked Jesus,
And there was no reply.

But only the sound of bugs!
Hummimg around him!

He was thirsty!
Seemed like a stream was nearby.

He searched and found,
A little stream with melted ice.
Flow around.

And a deer was there.
Innocently smelt the fragrance of spring air.

He tried to be very very friendly.
But the little deer was so frightened.
That she hide away from the traveler.

He was heart-broke!
Then dig heart out and said
"If this is what you wish?"

The deer ran away like wind!

And the big trees rumored,
"Her weeping tear was like the dewdrops on leaf!"

The Nest of Blue lark: How Large is the Universe?

The Nest of Blue lark: How Large is the Universe?

The Nest of Blue lark: How Large is the Universe?

The Nest of Blue lark: How Large is the Universe?: "This is my review from the film of youtube.And I believe that not only me think so! If we mankind seek to know the universe and how it was..."

How Large is the Universe?

This is my review from the film of youtube.And I believe that not only me think so!

If we mankind seek to know the universe and how it was made,
It would be a bit of like building the Barbel Tower,
When our ancestors tried to know where was God living.

What would happen?
Aren't we gradually destroy this Earth?
And this was because of "His Anger"?
I don't know!

I remember Einstein as a humble man from the Creator!
But not  an ambitious man who seeks the Maximum of universe,then blindly thinks himself higher than the creator !
Creator of the "SUPERMAN"theory ,died in the psychiatric hospital,if anyone super than God?

I respect these fighters for human knowledge.
But I know,if we humbled,He show us more,more about the TRUTH!

How Large is the Universe?

Eagle in Sun

After a thought,what's left?
After a song,what'll exist?


There was no one but a lonely philosopher.
Or a heart-break poet.
And he was seeking a while of peace.
A space of memory.


Nothing left but the ego.
The ego as an Eagle,strayed and lonely.


When no one notice him.
He flight high and far.
But ,when he fall in love.
With the last summer rose.
He just couldn't see.
Why a love song,
Turn into bitter wine?


The tempest tore them apart.
Then he buried his rose in grave.
And seeks for the redeemer the sunshine.


The child asked,
"If there was a eagle in the Sun?"


And he was so proud!

心靈冒險家

當每個人都在奮鬥時,我卻看不清自己的目標.
似乎周圍的朋友都功成名就,我卻開始覺得沒有重力!
人世間短暫的名利,天主不願意讓我得到,
但是心靈的冒險,卻是我最奇妙的體會!
敏感,和幻想的精神,讓我乘著雲彩,飛翔起來!

有很多作家去了很多地方來充實自己,
我沒離開過台灣,但是在心裡,神遊萬物!

神游在聖潔和病態之間!天才和小卒的世界!永恆與肉體之間!

只有三十三歲,要問是否有遺憾,似乎太早了!

但我很滿足,不忮不求,何用不臧!是我能體會的修養!
更何況!一顆豐富的心靈,已讓我的葡萄園,結實累累!

我的老友,都已有自己組織的家庭.
少連絡,但永遠祝福!
也因此,我脫離了少年時的形象,不再被同儕定型!
不再等著吃名店,或一起唱KTV.
修得的是另一番天地!
尤其是運用網際網路,和全世界說話!

我是說大話?還是夢話?已經很難分辨!

嚮往流浪在神曲裡面的但丁!他看見靈界的風景!
而我是由人間走向天路歷程的孩子,
雖然有時候,我覺得這條路好辛苦,
不是肉體的疲倦,而是因屬靈的爭戰而傷痕累累!

但我相信自己是應許的人,祂必引我休憩在青青溪水邊!

(BBC) - How the Earth Made Us - Water - Part 1

天地不仁

生命是如此脆弱,也如此珍貴,尤其當我们看見在上帝的意旨下,人類及一切生靈,在轉眼間,被天災毀滅.而上帝的意旨是我们人類所不能洞察的.老子說:天地不仁,以萬物為芻狗.天地即造物主所創的大自然,造物主對我们基督徒而言,就是上帝.大自然沒有憐憫生靈的慈心!那麼上帝呢?

聖歌裡讚美天主是仁慈和公義的主宰者,為甚麼純潔如基督城,海地,中寮的地方,會被上帝降禍?

在創世紀裡上帝降禍給罪惡的城市,所多瑪與葛摩拉,就是被毀滅的地方,不只如此!諾亞時代,因為人類的罪惡,所以上帝降下大洪水,毀滅一切,只留下諾亞一家人,因為他们是義人!

但是義人卻也不是不受痛苦與折磨,即所謂的"受難僕人"!
像舊約裡的約伯,因為完全正直,所以接受更大的挑戰,上帝考驗他的義,毀滅了他的一切幸福,直到他證明,不論際遇如何,他都是無瑕的義人!

或許這是天主要中寮證明,我知道他们永遠都是良善心謙的人,即使有多麼不幸!

生命是非常短暫的,除非體會到永生的天主性!
我相信篤信天主教的海地亡魂,是為繞在耶穌身邊的羔羊!

永生就是不朽,不朽不見得是有很大的名與利!而是有真正高貴的精神!
這次宮城大地震,日本人表現出的,就是真正了不起的精神!即使我不知道在天主心中,他们是不是"受難僕人",但我相信,只因為日本值得考驗!

The End of World

The catastrophes came one by one.
I believe in the End of World would come soon.
In order to pass the Judgement Day,I must do everything Jesus said.
Donate to poverty  only be with daily necessity ,love my neighbors ,
forgive enemy and to be without hatred .........

Do everything God request !
Jobs and romance are not so important!
The one who pray will go into heaven but not the other who had done a lot of works!
Besides,in the heaven there is no one married ,why should I insist on earth for the love letters!

I must loose my weight as quick as possible!
Because for us Catholic ,we will resurrect with the figure on Judgement Day!

I don't want go to department store for fun anymore!
In Taipei,every stores cooperate with Japan,I don't want to be easy and funny in front of them!

Mourn for Japan!
Mourn for New Zealand !
Mourn for Queensland!
Mourn for those who haven't awake!

Isolated Existence

I live in the way of isolation,but , friendly to my neighbors!
I choose to focus on my relationship with God but fallow His will to feel and love my neighbors.
In other words,it was God who loves and I obey.

Have I ever exist?

What is the price of my life?

I come to learn how to reach heaven.
To reach heaven is not because I am so great and strong,but because I give up the mortal price value,and receive His mercy .
Once and once again,we said"Your kingdom come,on earth as in the heaven"
This sentence is nuclear of t my faith.
I do my best to be a peace maker and  His helper on earth in order to build His kingdom.
And this is just the reason and value of my life.
To live !Till I qualified the membership of Heaven.

I like to go to the nature along,and feel the vigor of creatures.
To feel what God wish me to learn ,what is the true compassion for every grass and insect.
Every creature is my neighbor,but not only the one next door.
I am not doing any kindness or charity,but feel God's words by mind.
It is Him who combine the creatures in love.
And heaven begins from a very small seed inside our mind!

Only when the catastrophe come,we obviously feel how do our neighbors need!
But,to love someone is not always to shelter and benefit him!
To love our neighbor is to understand and bless each other.
Just as God doesn't always feed us but tolerance our limitation.

To exit is to be like God!
Don't be shock!
He create us human-beings as His kind.
Only when we sense we exit with God ,then ,we reach the value of life!

To be like God,is to have a heart like Jesus!

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God looks whole ,Man limited

How could I know the voice of God,and never misunderstand it?
How would God talk to us?
In the way of meditating,inspiration,pray,or ponder?
We should look inside to meet God,or seek Him in our life?


God is in everything,even Satan was made by Him.God talks to us by anyway,but sometimes ,He tempt us to go into danger and mistake,not because of He is not a righteous God!But because He want to challenge us to be wiser and stronger!


Sometimes,we feel a result is not good,but for God,everything is good!Because He looks the whole but people only look part of!For human-being,something happen as disaster but for God,it is Good News for the Universe!


How could we obey Him?If many times,we couldn't know His will?


For us Christian,we fellow every word of Jesus.But sometimes we feel complicate in emotion or inspiration and nothing to do with the Christian ideas,then,what should we do?


We should give it up to God ,that Him make the decision!
Or,believe in, this is the time He want us to make the decision.
Because He had already combined inside us!


How long should we wait for His answer?


Everything patient,remember,God looks whole Man looks limit!

迷路

荒涼的枯林裏,
夜漆黑的讓生命停滯,
沒有燈火的孩子,
迷路了!   走失了!

驚慌的小臉上,
掛著看不見的淚水,
伸出手臂探觸,
一切都是陌生的冷.

鬼魅在身旁呼喊著!
附著他受苦的靈魂!
喊他的名,
要他入地獄,

他不停地跑著,叫喊著,

"我沒有做錯!"   "我沒有做錯!"

"你為甚麼折磨我?"  "你為甚麼折磨我?"

一次又一次的摔倒在地上,
盤根錯節,咬住他的腳踝,

他不知道,自己是誰了!

一隻小鳥的叫聲傳來!
"孩子!聖母在找你!不要害怕!"

小鳥飛在肩上領著路,
啁啾著奇妙的旋律,
月光灑在地上,
是一條筆直的路,
一直通往聖母的懷抱裡.
 

Jascha Heifetz plays Tchaikovsky Violin Concerto: 1st mov.

Brideshead Revisited

Brideshead Revisited

At the end of my twenties,I knew this story,which is breathtaking for my feeling!
At first,I watch the drama,then I was thirsty to read the book of Evelyn Waugh.
I remember ,many days I was left alone at home,read Waugh's words and recalled the drama.
And in my CD player ,it was Aled Jones' pure and sensitive tone,singing"I Found A Dream"!
It was my last youth!
And my last dream!
And I heartbreak for the story!
Someday after,I read "Die Geburt der Tragödie,
I fund out ,Sebastian represent Dionysus,
Charles represent Apollo!
Pity I am not Nietzsche,
But a Susanna with no pity for youth!